you think too much and you confuse yourself. who knows what it is. it could also be something very dangerous. my friend knows. she says it's a dark tunnel i go down. is there a chance there is healing at the end of this tunnel?

do you know why i don't like burning discs of music for people? it's like, if someone i knew told me they were interested in learning from the bible, and i gave them photocopies from it.

something very interesting about you. you're very scared of me, but you've also got this incredible courage to get close to me. most men are afraid to get close to me. that makes me very scared of you.

i'm afraid to get close to you. i'm also afraid not to get close to you. i have a feeling that we are both stronger than we lead people to believe. don't let the weakness of others make you fearful of showing your greatness.

i understand how i process the world now. i am so separated from the inner part of me, that i rely on others to provide me close connections to help me interpret my inner messages and clues. but then what happened was that other people around me started transforming, too.

on april 23rd, i sensed that a big connection was coming. i put it out as much to the universe, as i felt the force of something important on its way. the moment i knew in my heart that i had severed a connection, another one comes in. We're just vibrating at the same frequency right now. don't look at this as a regular relationship. this is something completely off the radar.

you'll have to excuse my behavior lately. i'm kind of overwhelming myself at this time. i read this stuff and i get scared about where it comes from.

these forces are always disruptive.

do you know why chinese women value soft hands? because it's the sign of someone who is sensitive and submissive.