i realize how i lost my strength and by realizing this, i've gotten it back.

 

stay conscious, stay present. refer to those whose objectivity you trust to help you with perspective.

don't fall into a game of reactions or reflexes, stay clear and strong and watch to see how things are unfolding. there's no judgment about knowing who/what/where/why/how causes the domino-effect of reactions and illusory spin towards fear and negativity. you need to understand these things not for judgment or blame, but out of good sense so you know the forces at work and how to accept them, engage them, ignore them or dismantle them in the name of positive life force and projection.

perceive with detachment, perceive with objective truth so that you can project with positive regard and love. and if the end result is resistant to positive change or unacceptable for who i am and the quality of my spiritual life, i am prepared to do what's best for myself and find that balance wherever it exists.

i will continue to seek with tolerance, patience and open eyes, never taking what comes from life for granted. i know that what i seek will come to me when the time is right and when i am ready, so i will not force anything, or allow external forces to make me impatient, intolerant, negative or destructive. this was the discovery i made last year that freed me from my past and changed my life, and while i have been drifting towards weakness and darkness lately, i am refocusing myself and am determined to be conscious so i can be true to what is real and what is the way.

i'm not falling for negative tricks anymore. i am stronger than that and i know that. you can test me but you'll find out soon enough. dependency is not love. fear is not love. only expansion, acceptance and faith. i am a great person and an asset to people's lives. i'm not going to let anyone or anything make me believe otherwise.