sometimes i feel like i'm getting smaller and smaller and one day, i'll just simply lose my voice and disappear.

the frustration has been quietly building but i can't talk about it because otherwise it will rock the boat. i have to remain calm and make sure everything that is said is for the benefit of the both of us and the relationship. i am getting smaller and smaller and yesterday, i literally lost my voice. i often see outward symptoms as clear reflections of what's going on inwardly.

i suspect i'm quietly drowning in my own words falling on deaf ears.