yesterday was a significant day.

i was to meet david at work later and as i got ready, i remembered the first day i came back to amsterdam in may. it was after the first trip through europe when we'd met, and this was the first time we'd be face to face after he'd followed me to berlin. after dropping off my things, he took me to a park. we talked about a range of subjects from movies to philosophy to politics. then the talk turned to names and the power of names. i told him that i believed labels had power as well as what words we took to represent ourselves, so names did have significance.

he asked me, so you're telling me, if i'd been named...what...adrian when i was born, i would have had a different life?

i remember being shocked.

why did you say the name adrian?

he looked annoyed that i was getting off topic. i don't know, it was the first name that came to me.

it's funny that you chose that name. adrian's the same as david, i said. they're both (how much should i say...)...princes. so adrian would be the same energy as david.

he did look genuinely surprised and took a moment to think, but we quickly went off topic.

it was really significant to me though.

yesterday i was getting ready and decided to calculate the numbers in the name adrian, and it was 11. and then i realized something. david inherited his 11 from a step-father who is his greatest sun and his greatest shadow. adrian needs to become a 22. and then something hit me, that felt too irrational to say outloud, but i could tell it's not something i hadn't thought about before.

i headed to david's shop. as he and i were talking, i asked him about that day in the park when he asked me what if his name had been another name. he remembered the conversation but not the name. he asked me if this had anything to do with name of something we were supposed to produce. i asked him why and he told me that on his way to work, he was thinking that maybe it's not specifically us that's important, but who we are supposed to bring into this world.

from both the right and the left traveling independently of each other, everything seemed to be coming to the same place.