2008. A Retrospective

Fuck became my favorite seasoning.

The seasons changed colors and moods.

I fell in love with a ghost.

It came with strings of such resentment.

In the space between I want to believe it validates life.

I left my boss.

Like a fake-smile relationship with the rich, idiot kid of the guy your mom works for, but who you have to be nice to so she can always have a job. I started to throw around the word retarded because if that label can be used on my brother when he's so much smarter than them, then they're for sure retarded.

I found that I enjoy disappearing. That I love giving out hugs, but I don't like people to know how to find me.

I found that if you put too much pressure on me, I just spin spin spin

I found how deeply I can ache within my happiness.

The world is really not so big when you look at it as a tiny place inside you

The world is really only as big as you can imagine yourself.

2008 was heaven and hell

and somewhere in it all

i didn't lose my mind.