after months of hard work, we just won best new product at cannabis cup with the bc chillum. it was an incredible high, working with david to make something out of nothing and have it be successful. we're both winners when we want to be, when we put our drive and energy into something. there's just no question how strongly we can project ourselves onto reality when we want it. the highlight for me was the owner of the coffeehouse we were sponsered by, a shrewd and incisive no-nonsense businessman, saying i was brilliant and that he'd never seen someone put so much energy into a project. and that i'd impressed him which was saying a lot because he's not easily impressed. it meant a lot to me because the guy says what he means and doesn't bullshit. He really meant it and it came out of respect--i'm on his level. i think i knew that this was one of the things i wanted going in. it was one of my goals--to have a great time, to give others a great time, to win, and to let an opportunity that this guy gave us turn into something bigger and stronger than he could have ever expected, demanding his respect as an equal. i'm really happy because we succeeded in all of those objectives.

his girlfriend, the owner of a seed company that also won a few awards, gave a speech the second time saying this was for all the women out there who dare to dream. that when she first started, this guy had said she was a goldfish who needed to learn how to swim with sharks and now she was swimming with sharks. afterwards, she came up to me and gave me a big hug and said that us women just have to do it. it doesn't matter if it's a man's world, but if we have the talent and the ability and the burning in our hearts, we have to do it. in a way, that second speech came after we won, and i think it had to do with both of our wins...we were the only two women in the winners. that meant a lot to me.

i'm still recovering from the cup. i really did put everything into it, but it was great, it was so focused, i never lost track of my goals. it was 22 energy. the craziest thing is that at the beginning of the year, i would have never expected that 2008 would involve me quitting my job of 4 years, meeting a soulmate, moving to amsterdam and winning a cannabis cup.

this year has been the most incredible, free, adventurous of my life and i'm so thankful for it.