b gave me a sleeping pill last night because i've been sleeping so poorly. i was still waking up in the middle of the night, but it didn't feel so jarring and it was easier to fall back to sleep. i did find that every time i woke up, i would hug my pillow like it was another person. i think on some level, i'm lonely.

today hasn't been very eventful which in a way, i'm somewhat relieved for even though it's not over yet. i woke up early to run an errand, but i do have to say i'm a little disappointed in people for not being able to keep a secret.

went and played basketball and got yelled at by my coach because i played half-court 4's with these older guys and they didn't have much body control. went 3 for 6 (2 drives/1 mid-range, missed 3 outside shots). I'm playing more in control, can hit the pull-up jump shot, but to be honest, the more people on the floor, i still worry about feet and am careful about getting hurt.

i think the rest helped because i'm not as melancholy. but i'm not feeling completely here.