use triangles. they help you gain perspective on things.

i understand now why the number 3 is seattle's number. the people here are very obsessed with location--pinpointing a person on whatever grid they deem important. that's why people want to know where you're from, what you do and where you live. they are triangulating your position on an internal map. i think that's why i've been scrambling them a little. they don't know where to put me so i'm an anomaly. i also keep moving my points.

did you know my address is made up of a triad of 3's to make a balanced 9? symbolically, imagine 3 pool balls making a triangle. the most powerful thing i've got is a 12th house venus in cancer, which is the source of my karmic tie to the depth. it has always been a great source of pain but strength. a 12th house venus means that love comes to you in karmic ties, and many times, you're working something from the past out. love is spiritual. it is the placement of secret relationships and affairs. in cancer, it brings about deep emotional cycles and a driving maternal need to take care of and sacrifice for loved ones. one manifestation, you carry on in a secret affair where you never win with someone already attached. another, you love silently from a distance because for whatever reason, you can never get close. it's a tough placement. i've manifested it by letting it make my spirit stronger while not manifesting it in any way that compromises my spirit. by being philosophical about it, i gain wisdom. in seattle, a city that uses 12 to represent its 3-ness, i wonder if i am here to finally face the 12th house.

i am prepared to live a solitary, contemplative life without a partner, rather than compromise in a relationship with someone i couldn't be with in every way. i am willing to do karmic work if that's what the 12th house wants to send me, disguised as love. i am content to sit in the 12th house, and be one with its storms. but i will not stop believing that these are just the obstacles that are necessary on my way to finding something greater.