i know i've been all over the place lately. but i'll be honest with you. it has been an incredible experience lately, life...it feels like i'm getting the software in my head upgraded and i'm feeling all these old emotions getting erased by all these new types of experiences.

i had really bad back pain from january until may. i mean, some days it was torture to walk, but i didn't want anyone to know how bad it was so i powered through it. i started letting go of a lot of things and people in my life that i felt were holding me down, and i started feeling better, but right around may, as i had my eyes opened to a new level of awareness, my back stopped hurting. i started cutting down on diet and sleep, spending most of my nights dancing alone in my room by candlelight, doing yoga stretches and writing. it's weird how i can go to so many doctors to help me with my back, but deep down, if you intuitively do the things you feel to be true, sometimes you know the secret to healing.

michelle has a friend who was just diagnosed with having a large mass in her ovary. it's a scary time because they don't know what it is exactly. i asked michelle if this was her friend who married the virgo guy. i had remembered 4 years ago, michelle had told me extensively about a friend who married a guy who was a virgo. the guy had a mild and defeated temperament, and her friend basically told him that he was going to marry her. she said that the guy was miserable before getting married, yet still went along with it because he didn't stand up for what he wanted. so flash forward and they're still married but they have 3 kids. but the guy suffers from hypertension and all kinds of health issues. i asked her if she thought the bad marriage was manifesting itself physically in him. she said she was sure. now her friend has a huge mass in her ovary. i think this marriage is filled with a lot of bad energy, and it's killing them.