today:

everyone wants to see each other on the same dates, the weekend of the 19th and the weekend of the 26th. i would really like to be there for everyone.

i was upset that i didn't check my phone for messages earlier.

men are behaving strangely. i think people notice when people are very focused.

a girl flat out hit me in the face today. my lip was bleeding. i just finished my task and conducted myself as though i hadn't even noticed, then walked out.

strangers are approaching. finding the most weird and random reasons to talk to me. i'm not sure what they want yet. but i'm giving them my number. even though i know they'll never call. or perhaps not before i'm ready.

came home. focused on symbols. am getting several reports that tiny battles in the name of the positive are being won around the world. this is good. this is a good sign.

keep meaning to look up quantum entanglement.

i think i'm going to be a warrior again.

smile.

why do i like spending time alone.

well, somewhere in that big astrological tarot rant below it's expressed rather poetically, but i think there's also a far more selfish reason. many people live in their own private hells, and i don't want to spend time in it. everyone has a little collection of tragedies, a darkness from the past they don't wish to revisit. some people get more pleasure of carrying them along wherever they go. regardless, if you've been through your own personal hell, and are surrounded by people who want to share their personal hell, for god's sake, don't take it on. even to be polite.

and i'm also very good at disappearing and reappearing. that's something i quite enjoy, so you can't really do that without being alone sometimes.