i've had my energy grounded for a couple of days now and the resulting effect has been magnetizing.

it's actually incredibly pleasant to give into. and anyone who comes too close, i'm careful about being gentle and always maintaining the best intentions.

i'm also able to understand how magic is unique to an individual, and then on another level, it's unique to their ethnic and cultural background. individually people have specific magic but the group or the different groups to which they belong can really influence the strength of the focus of this magic.

i've been reviewing my book that intersects symbology, psychology, mythology and artist's path, i can see how things lay out and how to direct the logical points of your life story. however, at each step, the room you have to wiggle really depends on the people around you, and what roles they serve your story in the context of their own free will, needs and desires.

i can't tell if people want to know or not though about the things i see and how to see them. i feel like when i used to be naively open and talked to people as truthfully as possible, people did unfair things, or people ganged up on me. so i've really gotten by by not getting too involved with people and having superficial but easy conversations. maybe that's the leap i'm about to take now. if people don't want me to tell the truth, then i won't. but if they do want to know, they have to accept the consequences of seeing a reflection of reality and not take it out on me. the happier people are the ones who find out that the their reflection and their perception are basically the same. but those who get surprises should remember that this is actually a time to figure out what they want and adjust their life so that it fits the projections you have of it.

i have been very interested in chiron lately, as i know very little about it except that it's a healing planet and they believe it's a second ruler of virgo, but last week in my postings about sex, i started wondering if chiron didn't have something to do with scorpio's ability to use concentrated power for transcendental healing. maybe chiron is actually an expression of sagittarius building upon their recent memories of scorpio knowledge and adding to it sag's magical ability to aim an arrow at a star and hit it. i just can't accept that chiron rules virgo. she's a servant.

but then today i learned about the god chiron, how he was a centaur and was the mentor/drill sargeant/guardian of many heroes. even though centaurs can often be savage creatures because of their animal half, chiron was more evolved and peaceful, combining his primal, intuitive urges with the calm powers of wisdom. he's gentle out of discipline and choice and dedicated to sharing wisdom. but then hercules, who's an unevolved crazy muthafucker, got frustrated as his student and wounded the guy enough that he begged the god's to kill him. and they made him a constellation that rules sagittarius.

but sag is mostly documented as being ruled by jupiter. i think those planets share them rather than appear simultaneously in them. i think jupiter is like a siren who tempts so many impressionable sags away to an easy, happy but superficial life, but the more serious ones who refuse the tempting calls of jupiter to follow wise and mystical chiron, those are the ones who come back from the woods with shamanistic capacities. they are the counterpart to the descendents of athena/isis.