wtf?

you can't suddenly start poking a guy in the ear with a bully stick while things are good until he gets upset, then call with the intention to apologize only to stomp on his feelings until he cries, then let him stew in anxiety for a night before finally apologizing over a text in the middle of the night and while he's relieved that you're not walking out on him, make secret plans to find a job halfway across the globe to live closer to him which you are likely to freak out at if you actually get.

get a hold of yourself, gemini. what the hell is wrong with you? what the hell is making you so goddam mean? this isn't like you at all. this really isn't like you at all.