i'm so happy tonight. last night was hell and tonight feels great. that's just the way it goes...gotta do the work to reap the benefits. got really positive feedback for last night. cecilia wrote that she and greg (a teammate from the frisbee team who came to watch) were commenting about how i never lose the ball. which is not true because i had at least 3 turnovers, one of which was the tip-off which i flat-out dropped because i was laughing about something. but what mattered was her belief that i "never lose the ball" which means she perceived me as being in control. that's an external confirmation that i'm currently in control of my energies. i did feel very focused last night, both in the game and in writing. both were well out of my comfort zone, yet i managed to focus as though i was within it. this is great news.