today was a 29 day. a repeat of the forces of 09/09/09 (09/18/09), so i expected something interesting...something new to emerge from the fabric of reality. i'd also been warned to beware of being too isolated this week, as i'm vulnerable to feeling down at this time. yet today, i felt more adrift than any of the days i've spent in seattle, despite it being a beautiful sunny day and waking up to the sound of boat horns and train whistles.

i just felt hollow. can not explain it. have plenty to read, plenty to watch, plenty to take in, but a tinge of sadness to everything.

who am i? what am i?

does the world have a place for me?

mercury has been in retrograde and i've been telling everyone that september would be a hard month, particularly stressful the 15th-23rd. just gotta get through this, everyone. it's just one of those things. it's not you, it's all of us. but it's a good time to reflect and try to get something positive out of this anxious intro/retrospection.