i guess you should know i'm somewhere between the dumbest smart person you've ever met
and the smartest dumb person you've ever met.

but then again, you probably already know that. it's not like people can't see me.

i think i'm so good at rhetorical gymnastics that i do myself a disservice sometimes because i lose out on people willing to give me good advice or insight. or i miss opportunities or other people's good intentions completely because there are certain areas in my life where i don't expect help or good intentions.

i have to get better at that. letting people help me. not assume i have to go at everything alone and then resent having to go at things alone.